Lately.

I haven't written a blog, just to blog in a LONG time. Ever since becoming pregnant with Charlie and having Charlie, he's taken over my blog just a little bit... woops! He really is our whole world and means more to us than I ever even knew was possible, so it kind of makes sense that he's taken over our life and our blog. :)

But there have been some things going on that I do want to document that aren't necessarily "Charlie" updates, so here we go:

-I mentioned briefly that Landon was in a motorcycle accident on Charlie's one month birthday, but I never wrote about all the details.

I got a call around 5:15 pm from Landon. Before I picked up the phone, I figured Landon was calling to tell me he was just leaving work and would be home a little late. When I answered, Landon very calmly told me he had been hit on his motorcycle and that he was around the corner from our house and that he had to get off the phone. I hung up, a little confused. Then I started to panic... what did he mean he was hit on his motorcycle?!?! There's no such thing as a "little fender bender" when you're on a bike... I didn't even ask any questions, because I was just kind of in shock/confused.

I started bawling and called Landon's mom. She told me she was heading over there to see what was going on. I don't know why I didn't head over there too, I guess I was just confused and Charlie had just woken up and needed to be taken care of. A few minutes later Jason called me and told me that Landon was fine, but that I should come over. At that point I REALLY lost it. Jason told me that the paramedics and police men were there, and I knew it was serious.

When we got there and I saw Landon limping towards me... I can't really explain how horrible that felt! We hugged and cried and then Landon held Charlie and he lost it... I know what was going through his mind... he could've left his baby boy without a dad... All the "what if's" are even bringing me to tears as I type this. It was a TERRIBLE day.

So here's what happened. Landon was stopped at a red light and there were two cars in front of him. A guy driving a minivan fell asleep at the wheel and slammed into Landon, going about 25-30mph. Landon went flying from his motorcycle, and the motorcycle continued to go forward and landed underneath a truck two cars in front of where he was. The minivan then struck the Prius that was in front of Landon and then the Prius struck the truck in front of it... So that's how much force Landon was hit with. Landon was laying in the middle of the road, but luckily flew far enough that he wasn't in the middle of the left lane, but in the median. He is lucky to be alive and was definitely being watched over. I really can't believe it happened.

We went to the Emergency Room and luckily they saw no broken ribs or bones, but he was covered in bruises, road rash, sprains and his entire left side was extremely sore and unusable--especially his wrist and ankle. It even hurt to breathe...

After a few weeks of no improvements he ended up seeing a different doctor, getting an MRI, and finding out he may need surgery for a broken bone in his wrist. They put a hard cast on it for a month, and luckily when the cast came off no surgery was needed. But, he still has pain every day with his wrist and ankle and they'll probably never be the same.

It was also really sad because for a few months it was really hard for Landon to hold Charlie, who was just a month old.

It's been such an ordeal trying to get the settlement to pay for all the medical bills and Landon's pain and suffering, but luckily my brother is a lawyer and has helped us SO much!

After going through all this, Landon came to the hard decision that it was time to sell his motorcycle... Even though he's extremely safe, we can't put his life in the hands of other drivers. Especially now that he's a dad.

I'm so proud of Landon for making that decision, and he made it for Charlie. He cried as his motorcycle drove away with its new owner. He's such an amazing dad, and I love him so much for it.

This was a picture I took earlier that day, right before his accident. I can't even type the words... I'm just so grateful that Landon was okay.

-On a happier note, Landon won an all expense paid 7-day Eastern Caribbean cruise on Royal Caribbean's Oasis of the Seas from his work! (Which is kind of funny because our last cruise from England was on the same boat. What are the chances?!)

When I say "won" it's really more like Landon earned it and it was awarded to him for all of his amazing work. He was nominated and chosen and only 15 employees from the entire company received it. I'm SOOOOOOO proud of him! He is such a hard worker and he does it all for our family.

But, I'm not going to lie, when he called me to tell me I got off the phone and lost it. (I promise, I really don't cry ALL the time haha!) But, how was I going to leave Charlie for 7 days?!?! It's in February, so Charlie will be 10 months. I am obviously extremely attached to my baby, because even leaving him for one day last month put me over the edge... plus I'm nursing! Anyway, we tried to see if we could make it work and bring Charlie, but it would have been $1,000, which is just insane... especially considering he wouldn't remember it, wouldn't care, and doesn't even eat the food. It's so dumb that the charge for babies!!!!

But at the end of the day, I knew that it would be an AMAZING opportunity to spend a week in paradise with my sweet Landon and I would regret not going. So, can you believe it?! I'm leaving Charlie for a week... okay, I can't really think about that part or I just get so sick... :(

But I really am excited to spend a week with Landon. And I'm getting scuba certified so that's going to be so fun to scuba in the Caribbean! And the other good news is that hopefully my parents will be coming! YAY!

-And the last bit of news... I am quitting my job at BambooHR at the beginning of February. Gosh, it's hard to type that. I LOVE my company and I LOVE who I work with and I really do love my job! But, Charlie is getting older and sleeping less and it's getting hard to work, even though I only work 20 hours and get to do it from home... It's a weird feeling knowing that I am walking away from working with no idea when I'll work again. I've always worked/gone to school, but of course my dream job has ALWAYS been to be a stay at home mom. I was hoping we could make my part time job work for as long as possible, but it's just getting hard. I have always struggled with anxiety and the stress I feel from trying to run our house and take care of Charlie and also find time to take care of me... it's just been a bit much.

So I'm sad to leave BambooHR behind, especially when they've done SO much for me, but I'm also extremely excited to get to be a full time mama! :)

Anyway, that's all! :)