Friday, November 30, 2012


Yesterday was a hard day. I felt overwhelmed and disappointed and sad. As I cried to Landon he offered me advice and comforted me, even though I was being such a GRUMP.  I went to bed with a tummy ache from the stress of it all.

Well today Landon called me at work and said, "I was wondering if you would like to go on a date with me tonight?" Okay, cutest thing ever! We go on "dates" all the time but for him to call specifically to ask me on a date was the cutest thing EVER. It meant the world to me especially after such a rough day yesterday. He is always looking out for me and making me feel so special and wanted.

After I squealed for a bit I asked him where we were going. His reply was to Gap to pick out a new shirt and then to my favorite restaurant, Red Lobster. Tears streamed down my face as my feelings of doubt and fear and inadequacy were immediately replaced with love and gratitude.

Landon sure knows how to turn my awful mood right around. He reminds me why my life IS wonderful and why I am the luckiest girl in the world. Some aspects and circumstances of my life are not what I wanted or pictured for myself, but I do have Landon.

He is all I need.

An old picture, but can you say STUD?! Look at all that hair :) 

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Three Years.

On November 25, 2009 11:05 a.m. in the Draper temple, my life was forever changed.

I never thought I could love him more as we knelt across the alter, tears filling my eyes. I don't think we heard what the sealer was saying, we just stared at each other smiling like we were the only two people in the room. I just couldn't believe I was becoming Landon's wife. I was becoming his forever. The only word to describe it is surreal and one of the happiest moments of my life... up until that point. Little did I know that things were just going to get better. So much better.

I know in the grand scheme of things three years isn't much time at all, but these three years have changed my life. In these short years we have learned a lot...

We've learned that money isn't everything. Our first apartment was a hole in the wall, basement apartment... but we loved it. We also slept on an air mattress for the first six months (oh the simple life of newlywed college students!)

I learned how to bake (kinda), cook (kinda), clean (kinda), and sew (kinda). Landon learned how to deal with crazy, girl emotions (kinda) ;)

baking with our awesome wedding gift. love my kitchen aide! 

We learned what it means to be married...putting the other's needs before our own, communicating, arguing and making up, working together to solve problems and make huge decisions, having fun together, and mostly just loving each other.

We learned that it's the little things in life that mean the most... simple every day things like our nightly walks and eating dinner together are the moments we will look back on and cherish.

We learned how to travel on a budget and have been on three cruises (with two tentatively planned for next year...woot woot!)

We learned that being done with college is the best thing EVER. Graduating was a very, very, very happy moment. Now we have time to spend time together instead of doing lame homework!

We learned how to be real-life adults... with careers not just "jobs" and with a home not just an apartment. Sometimes I still can't believe that we are where we are. Landon is working at his dream job, we are living in our dream state, and I get paid to play with kids all day. We have learned to be grateful for what we have... we do NOT take our home and our jobs for granted.

We learned that living in another state all by ourselves has been one of the best things in our relationship because we learned to rely on each other. Every day we get to be only us. It's been one of the best things for our marriage.

we love you Oregon!

We learned that the best thing to do is laugh together. Play. Be silly. Be best friends. Life is so much more enjoyable when you don't take it too seriously and just be happy.

We learned that we both communicate in different ways and have learned to meet somewhere in the middle. Sometimes I just have to turn around and not face Landon when I'm talking to him about an issue or talk to him with a closed door between us (I don't know why, but it makes it easier for me to talk that way). I have learned that Landon likes to talk about things right away... and it really is for the best.

this is us being "pretend" mad... probably isn't far off from the real thing :)

Landon has learned that I'm a bed hog (sorry dear!) and I have learned that Landon laughs in his sleep sometimes -- I'm so glad he has happy dreams :) oh, I also learned that Landon likes to sleep with stuffed animals. Cutie pie.

I have learned to share my toothbrush if Landon forgets his when we go on a trip. As a germaphobe this was a big one for me, but I have to remember... I kiss that mouth every day. And then I just can't think about it too much or I'll puke maybe.

kissing...sharing a toothbrush... same thing right?!
I just asked Landon for input on anything he's learned while being married... he said I learned how to build a boat. I said, how is building a boat anything to do with learning to be married?! His reply should probably be on a plaque somewhere... "Being married is like a boat... if you don't spend time on it... it'll sink" Well said Nan, well said.

where's Landon?

We've learned ALL about each other's strengths and weaknesses. It's funny how much we balance each other out... Landon is all about logic. I'm all about emotion (think: tin man and scarecrow).  He's smart. I struggle. He's very, very, very confident. I'm working on it. He tells people how he's feeling and is sometimes brutally honest. I'm more sweet and avoid confrontation at all costs. He likes to fix things. I tend to break things. He is very calm and collected in tense situations. I freak out and turn into a hyper spaz when presented with stress. He tends to keep to himself. I am a social butterfly and crave friends and social interaction. Very early on in our relationship Landon told me I was the ying to his yang... I couldn't agree more.

These past three years have not been perfect, but I wouldn't change a thing. Marriage has it's ups and downs and it requires constant effort on both parts. We're not perfect, so of course our marriage isn't perfect. Thankfully, we have the rest of eternity to figure it out together. I know we have SO much more to learn :)

Happy 3 years my love. I can't believe you're mine forever.

want more mush? Wedding details, year 1 post, year 2 post

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving from Mt. Hood!

We spent our Thanksgiving on the slopes of Mt. Hood with Landon's dad and brother.

I have to admit it was my best Thanksgiving EVER.

I have been snowboarding twice and never, ever got the hang of it. Thinking of snowboarding makes me want to cry. So this time I tried my hand at skiing and I LOVED it!

I was worried that the snow here would be awful compared to Utah... but it was actually really great! Plus the resort was amazing. It was soooo pretty seeing Mt. Hood's summit and all the evergreens covered in snow.

Tomorrow we will actually be celebrating Thanksgiving (turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing...the whole sha-bang) But who says you have to do that on the actual day? I'm all about making your OWN traditions :) for now we are snuggled up on our couch watching A Christmas Story. Yay for CHRISTMAS!

This year I am feeling very blessed, I am one lucky girl. I could make a big long list, but what I'm mostly grateful for is my wonderful, loving husband who makes me laugh every day and for my family that I miss SO much!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Family of Four

It is true... Landon and I are becoming a family of four! By Christmas we will be the proud new parents of two little yorkie brothers. We are so dang excited! All day long I have been skipping and bouncing and squealing :)

We have skyped with them twice and they don't really like to sit still!

My brother and sister-in-law have had them for about a month and it didn't really work out. Luckily, Ang is amazing and willing to put up with them for another month until we come down to Utah for Christmas.

Ang posted this picture on facebook with the caption "Two Yorkie puppies available to a good home. I need someone to love them and play with them, since I do not love them and will not play with them!" She cracks me up :)
Until Christmas, I will be dreaming of playing with my little babies, taking them on walks, snuggling with them, and cleaning up after all their messes. Okay that last one isn't very fun, but I think the bad parts of puppy ownership are totally worth it because puppies are THE BEST!

Landon has always wanted a dog (especially a male yorkie!), but has been a little hesitant in the past. This is the perfect opportunity and the best Christmas present I've ever had! We both agree it's basically fate.

THANKS TIM AND ANGIE!!!!!!!!!! :) We are so excited to meet the little guys in a month!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


I've had so much on my mind lately. When I start talking about this topic I become so passionate that it often ends in tears. My intent is not to offend anyone, but just to share my personal opinion. 

All around me I see the family crumbling. There is no doubt in my mind that it is under attack. Family is the reason we came to this earth. Family is all that matters. When people look back on their lives I don't think they ever say, "I wish I would have spent more time at the office..." but often you hear people talking about how they wish they spent more time with their family (think: 17 Again, Hook, It's a Wonderful Life, Family Man)

So why in our society is it so backwards? Ever since living in Oregon, I have learned that Utah really is a bubble (and that might even be an understatement!!!) I always knew mothers that stayed home, worked from home, or worked part time so they could raise their children. This was the norm for me. Now I know that not everywhere has the same priorities. I am ALL for equal rights, but since when did being a mother not count as doing something prestigious?! Honestly, I cannot think of a higher rank than the title of MOTHER. At my old job people thought I was literally crazy in the brain when I told them I dreamed of being a stay-at-home mom and how there was nothing I would rather do. Some even mentioned they'd go crazy if they had to stay at home with their kids all day :) 

I know that for some women, it is not a choice to work. They have to work because they're a single mom or they can't depend on their husband's income alone. That's a completely different story than a woman who chooses to work even though it is not needed. And I'm not even judging people that choose to be a working mom, but I just want to know why staying home and rearing children is considered a degrading, anti-feminist, old-fashioned idea?! 

So why do I think being a mother is more important than any amount of money or any career choice? Oh man, where do I even begin?

1. Mothers are teaching their children morals--honesty, hard work, kindness, compassion, forgiveness, charity, love. I'm sorry, but I do not trust daycare workers who have 50 other kids to worry about to teach children about the things that really matter. 

2. Mothers who stay home are able to devote ALL of their energy ALL of their time and ALL of their love to their children. I don't know about you, but when I get home from working all day all I want to do is sit on my butt! I cannot imagine coming home from a long day at work and having to worry about children. There's just no way I could have the energy to be a good mom. My children would be put on the back burner, and that's so sad.

3. Children lately have zero respect. All you have to do is walk into a classroom and you can see the lack of respect children have for adults. Children are doing drugs. Children are getting pregnant. Children know and use words they shouldn't even have heard yet. I know that just because you are a stay at home mom doesn't mean you are going to have perfect children... but I definitely think it will help. As a stay at home mom YOU are making sure that your children are learning respect and learning right and wrong. You are able to monitor them and keep them safe from physical and emotional dangers because you have dedicated your ENTIRE life to doing just that. You are able to protect your kids from the evil in this world.

4. Being a stay at home mom has everything to do with my testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Our church values mothers and ever since I was little I have been told that being a mother is divine. "Motherhood is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind. It places her who honors its holy calling and service next to the angels."  All of my beliefs on family come down to this document, The Family: A Proclamation to the World.  I know there is NOTHING more important that I could do for the world than raising righteous children. 

"No other success in life can compensate for failure in the home." -David O McKay

I am really really really not dogging on anyone or judging anyone, because that's not right. But I do wish that I could shout from the rooftops that being a mom IS important. It is not degrading. It is not demeaning. 

Being a mother is NOBLE. 

Sorry for the venting session, I had a lot on my mind after reading these articles about women choosing not to be moms and this one about a high-powered women in DC who chose to stop working to be with her family and how much ridicule she faced. I think women should be applauded, not scorned when they choose to stay home with their children.

Friday, November 16, 2012

No Big Deal (part 2)

But we just put an offer on this cutie:

Mooney 252 image via

Funny that it's been almost one year to the day since our first "no big deal" post :) We are thrilled and crossing our fingers that everything works out. Our adventure keeps getting more and more exciting if you ask me!

Sunday, November 11, 2012


I don't think most people get excited when their mother-in-law comes into town to visit, but it was like Christmas for me when I found out Landon's mom was coming :)

A little bit of a back story about Suzette and I... after one month of dating, Landon drove me all the way to Texas (20 hours!) to meet his family. I knew that Landon and his mom were close but I had no idea HOW close. I was SO intimidated watching Landon with his mom thinking that I could never be that close to Landon. They have a very special relationship and I didn't know how I would fit in. My first night in Texas I cried myself to sleep. 

on the road :)

Fast forward a few months. Landon and I are now engaged and he went to Texas to visit his family. My sweet future mother-in-law called me to tell me she was flying me out to surprise Landon. I was thrilled and surprising Landon was the best ever. 

surprising Landon at Costco :)
It was during this trip that I really got to know Suzette. I learned how much she loved her boys and how her whole life was dedicated to them. No wonder they were all so close! One day while we were out running errands just the two of us, Suzette told me how happy she was to share Landon with me. I remember her crying telling me how much she loved Landon but how happy she was that we had each other and that I could take care of him now. It was a moment I will never forget. All of my worry and intimidation of their relationship was gone. I realized that Landon didn't have to choose between me or his mom. I would always be his wife, and Suzette would always be his momma. There was plenty of room for both of us in his heart. 

Before the wedding, during the wedding, and after the wedding Suzette was always there helping me. She flew to Utah A LOT and I loved getting to know her more and more. We started talking on the phone and became friends, not just in-laws. 

my bridal shower
wedding open house in Texas
In March 2010, six months after our wedding we found out that Landon's mom and dad were getting a divorce. For obvious reasons, I will not go into detail about this event... but during this time I became even closer to Suzette. I listened to her and loved her through it all, at a time when she felt like no one else did.


Now, Suzette is happily remarried to the love of her life. I have never seen her so happy and full of life. We talk on the phone a few times every week and text probably every day. Suzette is the only person I can complain to about Landon because I know she won't judge him and I know she loves him just as much as me ;) She is always there for me. I feel bad because almost every time I call her I'm in crisis mode, either crying or angry or worried... but she doesn't care. I'm just so grateful to have her in my life. I'm so grateful that when I married Landon I gained such a good friend as well. I don't think I've ever told her how much she means to me, and I'm much better at writing than talking so thank you for always being there for me Suzette! Thank you for loving me and treating me like your own daughter. Thank you for raising such a sweet boy (even though we both know he can be a stinker too), he really has such a big heart. Thank you for being my friend. I love you so much and am so grateful to have you in my life!

Here are a few pictures from her visit. We seriously had SO much fun with her here and wish she lived closer!

she brought Christmas with her. YAY!

bundled up like dorks for one of our walks
flying up to visit family in Washington
fall in Oregon beats Utah for me. the green mixed with yellow is amazing.

Please come back and visit soon!!!
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...