Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye 2011...Hello New Home!

I got the keys to our house this morning... and it is even more perfect than I remembered :)

Here's the official tour of our empty home. Maybe I'll do another one after we get settled.

It still doesn't feel real. That house is ours? Really? We're so excited!!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I Love Technology

only 6 more days until I get to see this cute face in real life
(but who's counting, right?)

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Merry Christmas!

I hope you have a very Happy Christmas filled with joy, family, and love. Since we are cheap skates and don't send out Christmas cards--this will have to do :)

We're having a blast spending time with Landon's family in Texas and I'm already dreading going back to real life in two days (ugh!)

But the good news is, Landon surprised me with this baby for Christmas:

Wohoo!!! I'm so excited to learn how to sew and make curtains, skirts, pj's and just be all crafty :)

He also surprised me with home decorations--meaning I get to buy paint, fabric, knobs, lamps, rugs, etc. to make our house cute. I'm so lucky!

I loved having Christmas on Sunday this year. It was so nice to go to church, renew my covenants, and focus on the birth and life of our Savior. What a perfect day :)

Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Golden Ticket

I am a very happy girl and feel so blessed to be where I am in life.

But I have moments I find myself STILL wanting MORE. What on earth is my problem?!

Why is it human nature to not be satisfied with the now? Why are we constantly searching for our "golden ticket" that we don't stop to enjoy the chocolate! (loved this analogy from President Uchtdorf!)

Within two years, my biggest dreams have become my reality.

I have always wanted to graduate from college. I've always wanted to have a loving husband. I've always wanted to have a house. Three years ago I used to say "I can't wait to be married" or "I'll be happy when I'm done with college" or "I can't wait to get out of this crappy apartment and actually own a home." And now that I've finally reached my "someday" I'm still finding myself saying "Won't it be nice when..." or "I can't wait until..." STOP IT HANNAH!

I saw this quote today and it was EXACTLY what I needed to hear

"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for."

Wow. I am totally short-changing myself by worrying about the future instead of enjoying the beautiful life I have been given now.

Right now is perfect. Right now is my golden ticket :)

Sunday, December 18, 2011

If You Need Me

As we were going to bed last night (and cuddling, of course) Landon kissed me goodnight and said, "I'll be right here if you need me."

Such simple words, but they brought me to tears. The realization that no matter where I am or where life takes me, if I need Landon-he'll always be right there.

There's nothing more comforting than knowing we do not have to go through this life on our own.

Life is hard. Everyone has trials. Everyone hurts. Heavenly Father created this beautiful earth and sent us here to learn and grow-which means going through tough times. But, in His ultimate wisdom He sent us here as families so we don't have to go through the tough times alone.

Whether it's your sister, your mom, dad, uncle, cousin, husband, daughter, or even just a friend, there is always someone who will be there to help bear your burdens and ease your pain.

And even if you truly feel all alone and feel there is NO one on this earth that can help or understand you, you are never alone. Our older brother has been there and has literally felt your pain, sorrow, and suffering of every kind. He will always know how to help and heal us. All we need to do is turn to him, and He'll be there if we need Him. Always.

"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you"

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


This is technically mine and Landon's third Christmas together, but I feel like it's the first year where we've actually been able to establish some of our own little traditions.

I just love the holidays and love family traditions. It's what makes your family unique and they create the best memories. It's also something you get to look forward to every year :)

So after making a successful gingerbread house from scratch, we decided we are going to make this a yearly tradition. It was a lot of hard work, but it was totally worth it! It was good ole fashioned quality time if you ask me :)

Our second yearly tradition is an elf named Christopher. My mom heard that Landon grew up with elves and wanted us to have our very own elf too. He started out on our mantel and then we woke up one morning to find him like this:

It's always fun to wake up every morning and see what Christopher has been up to :)

Landon told me that the elves that he grew up with would leave little notes (I didn't know this detail...woops!) so I guess Christopher was a little shy this year...but I have a feeling he'll be leaving notes and maybe even getting a little more mischievous next year.

Some other traditions we've established are putting up the tree the day after Thanksgiving, making homemade fudge, blasting Christmas music all day, and watching a Christmas movie every night.

But... we want to establish more traditions based on the true meaning of Christmas, like visiting live nativity scenes and reading the account of Christ's birth from Luke. It's so easy to get caught into the "santa" side of Christmas and all the hype of presents and spending money... and I don't want our family to lose sight of what Christmas is really all about. What a wonderful blessing that our Heavenly Father loves us so much that he was willing to send His own son so that we can return home again.

I love that Landon and I are establishing our own family with our own little traditions. I know there are some "Miller" traditions that I may have to put up a fight for when kids are introduced to the picture *cough, stockings at the end of your bed on Christmas morning, cough, cough*

Oh, I just love Christmas more than anything. It brings family together and helps us remember what matters most - family & the gospel. It truly is the most wonderful time of the year!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


Before I even say anything, I just have to say that I know what I'm about to say is completely ridiculous (say that ten times fast!)

I have nightmares and have trouble falling asleep at night thinking about how empty our house is going to be. (I told you, ridiculous I know!)

But really, every piece of furniture we have has been given to us. It's all mis-matched, outdated, broken, etc. We don't even have a dining room table, night stands, end tables, etc. We only have one little couch.

Honestly, we'd probably still be sleeping on our air matress right now if a family friend hadn't given us their old one for $20 bucks (true story...we slept on an air mattress the first year of our marriage!!!!)

you can't even tell it's just a blow up with a little foam pad on top, all in a bed frame :)

I just want our house to be cute and feel like home, but honestly it's going to be empty. I have some homey-ish decorations (curtains, frames, signs) but that was only enough to fill our teeny basement apartment, not a huge house.

this is pretty much the extent of the "decorations" in our apartment

I shouldn't even be complaining, because I really am SOOO grateful to have a house, I'm just stressing about what we're actually going to be putting in it. I'm SO jealous of girls that are just naturally crafty and have an eye for decorating... because I really don't have it.

Exhibit A: I don't own an iron or an ironing board.
Exhibit B: I don't own a needle/thread/sewing machine
Exhibit C: My dad had to sew a button that fell off my pea coat for me. This was a few months ago.
Exhibit D: I had a hole in my skirt, so I taped it. True story.
Exhibit E: I just learned what Modge Podge is like a month ago

Oh heavens! I guess the root of my nightmares is mainly the fact that I'm not a homemaker, and I REALLY want to be that girl. So bad.

Anyway, I decided I might do a video tour of our house when it's empty... so that way it will look intentionally empty. Because if I wait until our stuff is in there... it will still look empty, but not on purpose!

And don't even get me started about the 3 empty bedrooms upstairs. I told Landon we're going to feel awfully lonely in that house...but I know a really great way to fill it up ;)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

A Perfect Weekend

This weekend wasn't anything special, but it was perfect.

Friday we went on a walk after work, ate dinner, and started the movie It's a Wonderful Life-my all time favorite Christmas movie.

Saturday morning I made french toast. I'm such a good little wife huh? This is only the second time I've made Landon breakfast since we've been married... and the first time was last weekend! woops! My mom and dad sent us a package with stuff to decorate our apartment--including these adorable Christmas plates for a Christmas breakfast. Aren't they cuties?

Then we went up to Kalama to be with our family. We ate lots of yummy food, went to see Santa, watched a few movies, and just hung out. We love being so close to Uncle Rob and his family!

their puppies are so snuggly and like to be inside Landon's jacket :)

I am not a cat person, like at all, but man I love Emma's new kitty!

Sunday we finished It's a Wonderful Life (of course I cried like a baby at the end), went to church, went on a walk, ate dinner, and watched Elf.

I just love being lazy with my best friend. It was just what the doctor ordered after a hectic month at work, and considering how hectic life is going to get in the next few weeks too.

So here's what we'll be up to this month:

We leave for Texas this Wednesday morning. So excited to spend time with family and have two weeks to just hang out with my bestie with no work! wohoo!

I get back December 27th...I can't miss the end of the month at work, ever :(

I get the keys to our house on December 31st! Since Landon will still be in Texas, I figure I will keep myself busy and clean our house from top to bottom and move all the little things.

Landon gets back January 3rd (hallelujah!!)

We officially move in the 7th!

SO crazy. I can't believe it's really happening, but we are STOKED.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Thanksgiving in a Nutshell

Thanksgiving has never been one of my favorite holidays, I'm just not a huge fan of turkey and since my parents are from England, it just wasn't a huge deal growing up. Sometimes we'd even go out to eat on Thanksgiving which was fine by me :)

But lately, I've started to like Thanksgiving more-mainly because it brings family together and it's a time to reflect on how blessed we are. This year we were lucky to have Landon's dad and brother visit us and we went to Washington to be with our family.

Some of the other highlights of the week were:
  • Bringing in Christmas and putting up the Christmas tree first thing Friday morning and of course blasting Christmas music :)
  • Flying to McMinville to go to the Air & Space Museum. We decided this day was "Landon's day" because it was a perfect day for him. Flying, looking at airplanes and space shuttles, and we ended the day by eating at Outback-his favorite restaurant.
this is the airplane Landon wants to build. this baby would get us to Utah in 2.5 hours!

oh I just love him :)

this was in the children's discovery area :)
  • Making a gingerbread house from scratch. We made the dough, rolled it out, cut it out, and baked it. This was an all day process and took us 8 hours but it was definitely worth it. Our apartment totally smelled like Christmas too :)
We love having family in town and getting to visit with family. Only 10 more days and we'll be in Texas for Christmas. Wohoo!

Friday, December 2, 2011


Lately, I have let myself become overcome with stress instead of being grateful for what I have. I have chosen to view my life in terms of what's wrong instead of what's right.

I heard those quote recently and it has stuck with me.

"Both abundance and lack exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend...when we choose not to focus on what is missing in our lives but are grateful for the abundance that is present -- love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature and personal pursuits that bring us pleasure -- the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience heaven on earth."

So, now is the time for me to adjust my attitude.

The thought has been pressing on my mind how POINTLESS it was for me to go to school and here were my reasons:
  • I don't even get to teach. In Oregon they require you to have a masters, and even then people can't find jobs.
  • I have almost 40k in student loans people. That's a LOTTA money for something I don't even get to use.
  • The job I have now definitely doesn't require a diploma of any kind
  • I am now having to work at an office (not my ideal work setting) to help pay off our loans. If we didn't have these loans I would most likely be a stay at home mom in the near future. My dream. My ultimate dream and biggest desire of my heart (read all about it here). And these dang student loans are standing in my way. We don't want to take 20 years to pay them off --we want them gone NOW which means chunking away my entire paycheck each month to pay them off within 3 years. And guess what? If I didn't go to school these student loans wouldn't exist.
Bad attitude, right? Don't worry, it's since changed to this:
  • Who knows, maybe Oregon will change their requirements and I will be able to teach someday? Or maybe we won't live in Oregon for as long as we think?
  • Or maybe we stay in Oregon and raise our kids here. Since the school system is a little crappy here, I will be able to use my education to supplement my kids' learning and make sure they're on track.
  • I made some GREAT life-long friends in college and had some amazing experiences. I learned and grew and became a better person.
  • Education and a diploma are ALWAYS a good thing, and I am so grateful to be prepared and have mine because you just never know.
  • The things I learned in school will help me when I'm a mother
  • And last, but definitely not least, I met this boy while I was in college:
Yep, I need to stop complaining and start realizing that Heavenly Father DOES have a plan for me, even though I may not always see the immediate benefits.

I am truly so blessed. I have a loving husband who is my best friend. I have the best family and friends that will always be there for me. I have a job. Landon has a job. We have a warm place to sleep. We have food & clothes. We have love. We have the gospel. We have each other.

So, lesson learned. Choose to view your life as all the abundance you have instead of lack of abundance. You really can look at your life either way, but why not choose the happy version?

P.S. Thanks Landon Dean for holding me as I cried with my bad attitude. And thanks for helping me see the happy version of my life. You're my rock :)

P.P.S. Love this new Taylor Swift song. It accurately describes how I feel most days and how it all changes when I get to be with my Landon :)

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