Friday, February 26, 2010

Starving!!!

We are not just baby hungry... we are baby STARVING!


















I have always loved kids and have always wanted to be a mom, but I never thought I would marry someone that wanted to be a dad SO much and loved kids as much, or more than me! Honestly, Landon is probably more baby hungry than me, and I'm pretty bad. Its just so cute how much Landon wants a little girl and how much he wants to be a daddy. He really will be the cutest dad EVER, it makes me cry just thinking about it! But for now, we have to finish school and figure out how to pay off our loans before we can bring a little one into the picture...which totally sucks! Luckily, Landon's cousins that live right above us just had a BEAUTIFUL little boy that me and Landon get to play with daily. Hopefully one day soon we can have one of our own, but for now we are just STARVING! :)

Friday, February 19, 2010

You're Gonna Miss This...

Lately, I have become a bawl-baby. I used to not cry very much and now the slightest thing can set me off. Like watching a Gerber Baby commercial and I'm all tears. Its actually kind of pathetic. But whatever. So this morning I was eating my cereal and listening to my Pandora Rascal Flatts station when You're Gonna Miss This by Trace Adkins came on. Immediately I am in tears. Here are the lyrics to this lovely song:

She was staring out that window, of that SUV
Complaining, saying I can't wait to turn 18
She said I'll make my own money, and I'll make my own rules
Mama put the car in park out there in front of the school
Then she kissed her head and said I was just like you


-Chorus-
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this


Before she knows it she's a brand new bride
In a one-bedroom apartment, and her daddy stops by
He tells her It's a nice place
She says It'll do for now
Starts talking about babies and buying a house
Daddy shakes his head and says Baby, just slow down


-Chorus-
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this


Five years later there's a plumber workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin', one kid's screamin'
She keeps apologizin'
He says They don't bother me.
I've got 2 babies of my own.
One's 36, one's 23.
Huh, it's hard to believe, but ...


-Chorus-
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this
You're gonna miss this


I love love love this song because who doesn't say "well when this happens, then I'll be happy." I think we are all guilty of this. Lately my thing has been when I'm graduated, have a house, and have kids I am going to be loving life. But, I know for a FACT I am going to miss college, I'm going to miss the days when it was just me and Landon, and I'm for sure going to miss our dumpy little apartment. So, I am really trying to soak every minute in and enjoy these days while I have them, because I know one day I'm REALLY going to miss this. I definitely need to start living in the present and finding all the good things that I have right now, because I really am so lucky. I love this quote by President Monson "Learn from the past, prepare for the future, live for today."

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Wedding Day!

The best day of my life! November 25, 2009

The night before the wedding, I went through the temple and afterwards went to Zupas (my FAVORITE) with mine and Landon's family. It was the PERFECT way to set the tone for the next day!



I came home, received a blessing from my daddy, and fell asleep watching Aladin (for those of you who don't know me, Aladin is my comfort movie). I honestly didn't think I would sleep at all because that whole week I had been too antsy and excited, but for some reason I fell asleep instantly and slept like a baby! I was so calm and peaceful, which is weird for me :)

I woke up that morning at 6 a.m. and my best friend Jenna came over and did my make up! She is such a sweet girl and bought all this make up so she could make me pretty! Then, I went over to Salon Dante and met up with the rest of my friends to get my hair done. It honestly felt like a complete dream and it had NOT hit me that I was getting married in just a few hours! Such an UNREAL feeling.

Well, I arrived at the temple with my parents and saw Landon for the first time sitting in the waiting room. My heart was just pounding and I couldn't wipe the smile from my face. I felt so at peace and so overwhelmingly happy! The temple ceremony was perfect. Words can't explain what I felt as I knelt across the alter from my love, knowing that I got to keep him forever. I will never forget this moment.

The rest of the day was a complete blur! After taking pictures at the temple, Landon and I drove up Little Cottonwood Canyon and tried to soak in the fact that we were MARRIED! We just kept saying things like "we really are married...." or "You are my husband..." Neither of us could really believe it :)

We then met up with family and close friends at Olive Garden and straight from there headed to the reception center to set up. The reception was PERFECT! We did the traditional line and then my daddy sang to me. I have grown up my whole life with my dad singing and playing The Beatles. It is such a huge part of me! So it meant THE WORLD to have my dad sing "In My Life" to me. I had begged and begged him for months and I honestly didn't think he would do it. It was so sweet. After that, we cut the cake, danced our first dance, tossed the boquet/garter, and had a PARTY! It was SO fun to dance and be silly and everyone had such a fun time!

It was honestly the perfect day! Now, here are pictures! Sorry for all the words, but like I've said over and over...this is like my journal :)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Love Day!

Yay for a day all about LOVE! Every day should be like this :)

I asked Landon if he would be my Valentine and he said always.
Awwww! I'm so cheesy its disgusting, but I thought it was sweet.
I love you Nan! You are truly my sunshine and my FOREVER Valentine :)


Happy Valentines Day everyone!!










Tuesday, February 9, 2010

An Open Heart

**Disclaimer: this is going to be a long one. Very personal, and from my heart. My blog has kinda become the substitute for my journal so just keep that in mind before going on to read this**

I have to thank my parents for the way they are and the way they raised me--it is the reason I am me. I can't say I've always been this way, but I am very very grateful to my parents for helping me become an open minded person--accepting, loving, and non-judgmental.


I am in a multi-cultural education class at BYU and we are learning all about how much we need tolerance and love when we are teaching children from different backgrounds. But somehow, we always get back to the gospel. Today we got into a discussion on how some LDS people are very judgmental of guys who do not serve full-time missions. There is so much pressure on these boys to go out and serve that half the time they aren't even serving with their heart, but just serving because if they don't they will be dis-owned, or they won't get their college paid for, etc. In my young women classes, I had at least 10 lessons about discussing what we need to look for in a husband and always at the top of the list was Returned Missionary.


I guess I never questioned that. I was going to marry a returned missionary, no matter what! I wouldn't settle for anything less. But a few years ago, it dawned on me that I really didn't care if my husband was a returned missionary or not. Don't get me wrong, missions are WONDERFUL and the church needs good, strong missionaries, BUT I don't think that you have to serve a mission to be considered a worthy and capable husband. I changed my priorities and decided that yes, a mission would be nice, but it was not NECESSARY. What was necessary was someone who had a strong testimony, was a good person, loves his family, treats me with respect, and someone that makes me laugh even when I am about to cry.


Well I am so unbelievably and eternally grateful for my change of heart that day because I found someone who is seriously the most loving person I have ever met, he has the biggest heart and loves SO deeply that it is unreal! I am honestly the luckiest girl in the world. He is going to make SUCH a great daddy and he already is the best husband. I couldn't have dreamed up something better! He always treats me with respect, he loves his family and my family, and family is his NUMBER ONE priority. I think it is hard to find guys like that out there! He is truly a family man and I am grateful! He is a hardworker and seriously a GENIUS. He has so many goals and is never ever lazy! He always always always makes me laugh. And on top of all this, he has a deep and strong testimony of this gospel.

So, you may not know this about my Landon Dean, but he only served his mission for five months. Not because he broke any rules, but because it wasn't for him. He fully intended on serving a full mission. He saved up for it with his own money and planned for it. But he had a very hard time on his mission and he just knew it wasn't right for him. It took courage for him to come home and face all the judgments and I truly admire him for it. (I would go into all the details, but I don't want to embarass the poor kid).

Anyway, as I was sitting in class today as we were having this discussion, my eyes just began to water. It hit me that if I never would have became an open minded person, I wouldn't have my Landon! That thought just overwhelmed me and literally broke my heart. I can't imagine not having him in my life. I still remember the moment PERFECTLY when Landon told me that he didn't serve a full-time mission. He was so quiet and so nervous and I could tell he was just so terrified to see how I would react. Oh, his face...It kills me to think of how sad he was! How scared he was that I wouldn't like him anymore. He is such a sweetheart and of course I was more concerned and felt sorry for what he had to go through and LUCKILY I did not hold it against him in ANY WAY. In fact, it just made me love him more.

So there you have it. By opening my heart, I received a huge blessing. It really makes me wonder what other opportunities I may have missed by not having an open mind. A person that could have been my best friend? Or just someone I wouldn't dare talk to that could've taught me a lot? I truly want to become more and more open and loving to everyone because who knows what else I could be missing. All I know is that I'm glad I have my Landon. Thanks mom and dad for teaching me to LOVE and not JUDGE.
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