Monday, March 23, 2015

Happy Birthday Landon Dean!

March 23rd is the most special day in the world to me. It is a day dedicated to celebrating that this CUTE baby was born... and boy, am I grateful!


Honestly, Landon has been dreading his birthday this year. You reach a point where getting older isn't really a good thing anymore. But, he is still YOUNG and it's not just about celebrating a new age, but about celebrating HIM.

The week leading up to his birthday (AKA his birth-week) I kept asking him what he wanted to do. Even though he didn't feel like celebrating, I wanted to celebrate him! Here's what our conversations have looked like:

Me: Do you want to go somewhere special for dinner?
Him: No. Well I guess we can go to Chipotle.
Me: We pretty much go to Chipotle every weekend... Let's go somewhere SPECIAL.
Him: Is this your birthday or mine? I want Chipotle. 
Me: Hmph!!!! 

Me: So what is my budget for your birthday present?
Him: I don't want any presents.
Me: I want to get you a present! At least something little (we are on a little bit of a spending freeze right now so we decided we aren't getting each other big birthday or Christmas presents...)
Him: I don't need anything. 
Me: Hmph!!!!

He was basically determined to NOT celebrate his birthday. So we really kept it low-key, but still celebrated all weekend ;)

P.S. I sucked at taking pictures... Boo!

Saturday we went out to Black Bear Diner with our good friends and then watched a movie. We love hanging out with the Fluckey's and had a great time!


Sunday we made steaks, had yummy doughnuts (I ate THREE) and watched Lord of the Rings. It was a perfect day.

I really can't get over how cute he is! Whistling while grilling his birthday-eve steak :)
Today (his actual birthday) we went to "The Rock" for lunch with the little boy I nanny. Enzo was SO excited to give Landon the card he made and it was so fun to spend the day together. He really loves Landon!

Oh my goodness. I couldn't stop laughing as Enzo told me what to write... "He's so pretty" HA! I agree Enzo :) 
It's my favorite to watch Landon with kids. He's just SO good with them and they love him!
Hannah, can I hold Landon's hand?! Can I hold Landon's hand?! Heart=melted.

Tonight we went to Chipotle (of course) and watched more LOTR and ate even more doughnuts. Oh and we played some N64!



I loved having a weekend to celebrate Landon and make him feel special--even though we really didn't do anything too exciting :)

I know I'm constantly bragging about this boy, but he truly is one of a kind. I don't know anyone like him. He is fearless, intelligent, kind, genuine, funny, hard-working, sassy, talented, and honestly has the biggest, sweetest, heart with such an enormous capacity to love. I could really go on and on. I feel so lucky that he is mine!

Landon with his engine that he rebuilt last year. He simply taught himself how to do it! See what I mean about talented? He can do ANYTHING he sets his mind to. Anything. 
Happy Birthday sweet boy! Thank you for being BORN! You are the biggest blessing in my life and truly are my HAPPY. I love you so much!

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Roller Coaster.

Up and down and up and down... my life is a little bit out of control right now. I normally like roller coasters, but right now I just feel like I'm going to PUKE. Get me off of this crazy thing!



Yesterday I was so happy and excited and relieved I literally could have floated away on a cloud. Today I feel so angry, disappointed, frustrated, upset, and stressed to the max. What the heck?!

I don't know why I do this to myself, but I get excited about things before they've actually happened. I get my hopes WAY up and then I just come crashing down. 

Here's a pretend example to show you what I'm talking about. Let's pretend like I bought a lottery ticket. We all know the chances of winning the jackpot are like 14314801469 to 1 right? So most people wouldn't be too disappointed when they find out their number isn't the winner. Me on the other hand? I buy that lottery ticket and I scream and jump up and down and kiss that ticket because I KNOW for a fact that I'm the winner. YAY! Best.day.ever! Right? Well imagine my disappointment when I discover that I am not the winner....

Okay, obviously that's a little dramatized (and hypothetical)... but that's how I feel right now. No joke. Not just in one instance of my life but in MANY. I keep counting my chickens before they've hatched.  I don't know what my deal is! 

Thankfully I have my sweet Landon who picks me back up after I fall. He cuddles me, tells me we're going to be okay and that we're going to figure it out. He talks me through the situation and helps me to see that maybe it isn't all that bad. So if life is a roller coaster, and I'm like the kid screaming to get off because I'm about to puke, Landon is like the dramamine that makes the kid feel better. The kid still has to ride the ride, but she isn't going to puke anymore. I really don't know what I would do without him.


I'm sorry for all the vagueness, but I want to remember how I'm feeling right now. I hope I can look back on this post in a few months and be like, "oh that was the WORST and I'm so happy it's OVER!!!

Life is up in the air and a little crazy right now, but I've got some dramamine and I'm going to be OKAY! ;)

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

A Visit to Utah.

I have been feeling SO homesick lately. We have been in Oregon for just about FOUR years (can you believe it?!) and I'm kind of to the point where I've had fun but now I'm ready to go back home. It's really been such a fun adventure to live on our own away from friends and family, but you really start to get lonely after awhile.

So a trip to Utah was just what the doctor ordered :)

Landon and I had to work on Wednesday, but we managed to get off early and leave Oregon at 2 p.m. It's a 12 hour drive to Utah so that meant we arrived in the middle of the night. The drive really wasn't too bad and when nighttime rolled around, we just blasted upbeat music and ate an entire box of chips ahoy chocolate chunk cookies to keep us awake :)

If you didn't know, radar detectors are a MUST on a road trip :) Especially when you are driving through Oregon on 65 mph highways. The minute you cross into the Idaho border the speed limit changes to 80. I hate Oregon sometimes.


We arrived at my brother's house in Herriman at 3 a.m. but decided we didn't want to sleep in too late because we wanted Chick-Fil-A for breakfast. One of the things we miss most about Utah is the FOOD. So our trip was dedicated to 3 things: family, friends, and FOOD :)

So at 9:45, we rolled out of bed and even though we felt like we had been hit by a truck... we were pretty dang excited to eat some chicken biscuits! :)

Our next stop was Sandy to go to my parents' house and Cafe Rio with the fam. I can't tell you how excited I was to see everyone and to eat at my FAVORITE restaurant in the world. It was basically the best day ever.



After Rio we went back to my parents' house to hang out. I love my family!

That night we went to my friend Jenna's house to see her cute girls. I wanted to see my friends Toni and Trina too and have a little high school reunion, but Trina didn't end up getting my text because my phone is DUMB. So it was really good to see Jenna and Toni, but we missed our Trin! :(


Friday morning we actually got to sleep in and take our time getting ready before meeting up with my family for Pei Wei... another restaurant we LOVE and have missed. Yum yum yum!


Then we headed to City Creek. I seriously love that place. And it started SNOWING. Which was basically magical.





I have the cutest mama!!
My niece Jolene is SO sweet and decided that I am not her aunt, I'm her sister. And not just any sister, but her TWIN to be exact. She is so dang cute!

We rode up and down the escalator quite a few times :)
That night, the WHOLE fam (minus 10 people who couldn't come/live out of state) came over for dinner. Have I mentioned that my family is ginormous? Because it is. It's basically a circus and I LOVE it! All of my nieces and nephews are getting SO old. I can't handle it.




This isn't even all of them..we were still missing 6 of my nieces and nephews!
I asked my dad if he would play The Beatles on the piano for me. I have missed hearing him play and sing SO much. I grew up listening to him play and that's part of the reason why I'm so obsessed with The Beatles. 




Saturday morning we went skiing with my brother Tim and his family. Utah finally got some snow and it actually snowed on us the whole day at Brighton. I got to hang out with my nieces and sis-in-law and her sister on the bunny hill while Tim and Landon went to do some of the more intense runs. I tried to help my niece Atlie and give her some pointers on skiing--but considering I barely can ski myself it was quite the challenge :)



After that, I was able to go on some blues with Landon and Tara. I am such a wimp and HATE steep hills. But I only fell three times, so that was an improvement from our last trip!


Landon took me snowboarding on our first date, so of course we had to take a kissy picture. Our story kind of started on the mountain after all :)

I just noticed that person in the background covering their eyes. Haha! 

It was such a fun day! I'm so glad Tim and Ang came with us!

Next we drove up to South Weber to see our friends Jen and Dave and their baby Lydia. We love them SO much and considering we live two states away--we manage to see each other quite a bit! They come to visit us all the time and we of course get to see them every time we visit Utah. We really love spending time with them!

We went to this really yummy restaurant up Ogden canyon called Taggart's. It's kind of in the middle of nowhere, but it is SO yummy! Then we went back to their house and chatted and played a fun game.

In the morning they made us the cutest/yummiest Mickey Mouse pancakes. We love the Egberts!




Since Sunday was our last day, we decided to squeeze in one more trip to Cafe Rio. We went with my sister Mary, her husband Zack, and my brother Joe. I swear I could NEVER get sick of that pork.

That night my whole family came over again. All of my nieces are obsessed with our boys, so I was basically Ms. Popular all night. But really, they just cared about my dogs :)



My niece Eowyn is SO sweet and such a love bug. Since she was only 4 when we moved to Oregon, she doesn't remember me too well. So I started showing her pictures of us together when she was younger and told her a story of how cute she was on my wedding day. At the reception, she would play with her little cousins and then run up to me and kiss my cheek, go right back to playing with her cousins, and then run back to give me a kiss five minutes later. It was the CUTEST thing and I'm so happy the photographer caught it on camera. So after I told her about it, she decided she was going to kiss my cheek the whole night just like she did on my wedding day. Oh my goodness, it melted my heart! :)


Later that night we played a few games and then it was time to say goodbye. I did pretty well, until I got to my mom and then my dad. Ugh... I'm such a cry baby. It was just SO good to see my family and I was NOT ready to leave. Landon and I kept saying how it felt like we should just be driving back to our apartment in Provo... not driving back to Oregon. I think that's a sign ;) 




We left Monday morning, but not before one more quick stop to Chick-fil-A. Yummmm! :) It was SO nice to drive home during the day instead of the middle of the night. 

I was pretty depressed and did NOT want to go back to Oregon, but luckily I had these cute boys cuddling on my lap to cheer me up.


We really had the best time and loved being around our family and friends! I'm already counting down the days until our next visit!!!! 

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Happy Love Day!

I can't believe this guy has been my Valentine for almost SIX years. In a few weeks we will have our "first date anniversary." 


At 19 and 20, we were just babies and we fell pretty hard and pretty fast for each other. I am SO grateful that all the stars aligned and we found each other. When I think about all that had to happen for us to even MEET, it's pretty much a miracle that we are together. A real-life miracle. I thank Heavenly Father every single day for sending Landon to me. 

I was SO nervous to go snowboarding for our first date and honestly I was a huge wimp the whole day. It took me about 30 minutes to stand up... and then I basically screamed the whole way down the mountain. But he was so patient with me and took the time to really build my confidence and teach me how to do it. 

Six years later, and he's still doing just that. When I am panicking, stressed, upset, overwhelmed... he is right there boosting me up, telling me how amazing I am, telling me I can do it. When I feel myself plummeting down the mountain, about to crash into a tree, he is right there to save me. Life hasn't been the easiest lately, and I don't know how I would make it without him. 


He is my rock. He is my home. He is my happy. He is my love. He is my very best friend. 


I love you my Landon Dean. Thank you for being my forever Valentine!

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Life Onion.

Right now I have a headache. I'm so exhausted that it physically hurts to be awake. My throat is scratchy and sore. I have to work overnights this weekend. I miss my family. I have disappointments and heartache. I have worries. Some days I give in to these negative feelings and allow myself to feel hopeless. I get angry and bitter and sad.

But then I get a reality check and realize that underneath all these seemingly "hard" aspects of my life   there is so much beauty and so much to be grateful for. Life has layers, just like people and just like onions (thank you, Shrek). Sometimes the day-to-day worries and the mundane details or the sickness or the anxiety take over. Those are the top layers. The not-so glamorous parts of life. But when you peel back those layers of your life-onion... you realize how much goodness is underneath.

I am ALIVE and healthy. I have wonderful, loving parents and family. I am married to my best friend who makes me laugh and feel special every day. I have a loving Father in Heaven that leads and guides me and loves me despite all of my faults and shortcomings. I have a job, a home, blankets, food, clean water, warm showers, puppies, clothes, a car. I honestly don't think I have ever been happier than I am right now, TODAY.

Underneath all those yucky, outer layers, I am blessed. You are blessed too. There is beauty in every circumstance. Every stage of life. Every trial. Underneath all the hard, ugly parts of life there is hope. There is joy. There is SO much to be grateful for. Every.single.day.

I needed this reminder today... I'm not kidding in the middle of writing this post, I had something not-so-great happen and I was pretty bummed. It was almost like Heavenly Father knew what was coming and knew I would need this reminder, especially today.

We have the power to choose to be happy. Happy people do not have perfect lives, because NO ONE goes through life without trials (as much as their instagram/facebook/blog might lead you to believe).  Happy people just focus on the good. We all experience hard times and we can choose how we react to them. Do we choose to let it harden our hearts and cause bitterness and anger? Do we choose to wallow in self-pity? Or do we choose to rise above, learn, grow, and move on? We can choose to focus on the good aspects of our life and when we do, we will realize how truly blessed we are. So peel back those crappy layers and don't let them bring you down. Remember that at the core of your life-onion, there is beauty and goodness and there's always SO much to be grateful for. Life is good, friends. Life is really good.

And what's a post without a picture? These two melt my heart.


Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Life Lately.

On a scale of 1-10 how much do I hate January? Easy. 4303143 times infinity. I hate January. Hate hate hate.

I have always had this problem. I wouldn't go so far as to say I have seasonal depression, but I really do get the winter blues. It's not fun to go from the magic of Christmas to nothing. Nothing exciting happens in January.

In November and December, the cold weather seems cozy and exciting. It feels like Christmas, so I embrace the snow/cold/wind with open arms!

After Christmas, the cold weather makes me cranky, tired all the time, lazy, etc. I feel like spring needs to start on December 26th. I'm done with winter on that day.

Now that it's January 21st, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. January will be over NEXT week! Thank goodness.

Honestly, this January hasn't been too bad though. Going back to work after a long break is always dreadful, but the weather has been SO pleasant here. We've seen the sun almost EVERY day, which is so rare in Portland! I am extremely grateful. Seeing the sun and blue skies makes me so happy. 

Here are a few things we've been up to this month to make January a little less dreary.


This juice had collard greens, kale, spinach, romaine, cucumber, ginger root, carrots, apple, lemon, and a BEET. I've never had a beet before, and as a former Jordan High School BEETDIGGER, this was an exciting day for me! ;)

Landon decided the collard green would make a nice hat. I called him "Peter Nan" :) He make me laugh every day!


  • We bought skis for me and a new snowboard for Landon. Remember how we decided we weren't going to buy each other Christmas presents because we went on a trip to London instead? I just think it's hilarious that we stuck to our guns, and then blew hundreds of dollars a week after... that would've made a really nice Christmas present... but we couldn't do that on principle! Ha! Anyway, I really wanted to get a snowboard because I thought it would be cute to match Landon and snowboard together. But then I remembered that I hate snowboarding. Landon took me on our first date, and even though I had a blast with him (obviously!) I hated snowboarding. I couldn't control myself at all and fell SO much. However, skiing is much more natural for me. I don't really have to think about it much and can actually STEER myself. That's kind of a big deal.
Landon was SO excited about his new board. It's a lot more nimble and bendy than his other board, which is fun for him to do tricks and play in the park



How cute are my skis?! I love them and we got them for such a good deal! :)

  • We went night skiing last weekend at Mt. Hood. It was snowing/icing the whole night, so we didn't get a single good picture. I brought my nice camera and wanted to take a picture of us with our new gear... but there was no way I was taking my camera out of the car! At the end of the day, I felt horrible about not having a single picture, so I snapped this "selfie" in the bathroom real quick. Classy, I know.

Skiing was quite the adventure... This was only my second time going skiing and my first time actually going on a real trail instead of just the bunny hill. I was honestly scared out of my mind, but Landon is so good and really helps me calm down. I trust him SO much, so when he told me I was ready for the green or for a blue trail, I knew I needed to be brave and try it. I fell A LOT, but I also had one run on a blue trail where I didn't even fall ONCE. It was a miracle. I never would've been brave enough to try a blue without Landon's encouragement. I love that boy! 
  • We have been binge-watching old seasons of Survivor since Christmas. I have always been a fan, don't judge. Well we were watching on Saturday morning and they had doughnuts as the reward for a challenge... they looked SO good, so we decided we NEEDED to have some too. We paused the episode and went right to the doughnut shop in our pjs :) 


  • And last but not least, we are the owners of the cutest dogs in the world. Hands down. I'm really not biased, it's just a simple fact. Landon and I miss them SOOOO much during the day--which may sound silly to someone who doesn't own a dog, but man they are really like your children! We love them so much. Every time I see them spooning/cuddling together my heart just melts. I also can't handle watching Landon with them. It's pretty much the cutest thing and makes me even more excited to see him with our future children! He's such a good puppy daddy :)

I seriously can't handle their cuteness! Do you see the way Oliver's chin is resting on Henry's neck?! Oh my heavens.
I love my little family!!!
Anyway, January really hasn't been too bad now that I think about it :) 
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